Rain...

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It's pouring rain here and to be honest I love rain and the smell of it - so refreshing!


Despite of the pressure of my work right now, I've been doing some thinking/calculating/budgeting and more -ing about my financial because starting next paycheck I've to pull out a quite amount of it for my car. *ke-shing ke-shing!*

Rain is like a cheap but effective therapy right now. Oh rain, stop distracting me from doing my work! I'm busy, you know~

It's Spring Time!!!

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Yeay!! The Spring is coming... NOT for me! Basically, my country is summer through out the year. However, it definitely would be lovely to see all the blossom flowers.

What I've been attracted most is the flowery pattern with pastel colour on cloth - dress, maxi dress, blouse - you just name it! I think, living in non-seasonal country means I can wear this spring's outfits are applicable all years long. Wuhuu for me!!!

What ever it is, the most important is to have another one of the best year's moment, okay! Have fun~

Lazy post

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 Lately, I've been busy with work, no internet connection, unstable emotion, personal problem and the list go on and on which difficult for me to come out with an idea to post in my blog. But, most of it obviously because of internet connection either no signal or slow connectivity that really pissed me of. Grrr!! *insert irritable mode here*

Any how, I'm back and will try my best to catch up all those lost times!

Weekend Blues : Accept the Reality?

The frustration feeling when you want a thing so bad, but it's actually impossible to have it no matter how hard you try...

Let me tell you a story... When I was a kid, I'm always wanted to pet a cat. But my mom was against this idea completely. When I asking for reason, she said the cat will dirt the house, cloth, floor etc 'cause the cat is coming from nowhere, playing outside the house. That time, I'm so frustrated with the decision 'cause I found those answers were impossible to accept! However, when I grew up, I finally manage to realise that my mom was right. All the reasons she stated is true but why can't I accept it on that time?

I believe that as long as we live, we will have to deal with this emotion continuously. Its hard to find out what is right out of wrong when we what a thing so bad. And its harder to turn a wrong thing to become the right one. That is exactly how I feel right now.

I do admit that I have done something wrong in my path to grown up, but for now, I'm not regret for what I had done! But the utmost frustration is I can't fully have want I have now. Maybe it is time for me to learn to accept it? I'll try my best, but if I can hold you anymore... I will let you go freely from my hand and my heart.

Thus, even though I love you so much right now, its hurt to know that I can't completely have you in the future. Its hurt when I can't say "I love you" in front of everyone. Its hurt when other people can say this magic words openly instead of me. Its hurt me a lot...

It does hurt~




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I'm back!

Hi, peeps! Sorry for a long pause in this blog. Actually, I have to go back to my hometown immediately, though. And to be honest, the main reason was because I'm sick for the last two weeks. I got my second (that's what my sister told me) chickenpox. Damn it!! I do  believe that I'm too old to have this illness. With the after-effect which were scars everywhere, could you imagine that!!! Also, the internet coverage was so slow at my house which put me in a perfect gloomy-dark-sick-day for the entire minutes I was there. Thus, it hard to keep up with this blog and, well, basically everything!

However, I took this unexpected sickness as a good excuse for me to have a long holiday with my family. It is good though to able to have full attention from our family like a baby... Ha-ha! Since now I'm back, I'll try my best to keep this blog alive again!

Till we meet again!




Picture credit: Mr Google  (and I improvised it a little bit... hehe!)